I often wonder what some of the men I used to see are up to these days. One in particular… I met him while I was enrolled in a private university when I was 18. I think we had a college success skills class together that’s irrelevant really but oh well. I can’t remember exactly [...]
ayden’s father/amari’s father
being around younger women/girls day to day at school im around a lot of mothers. mothers with “baby daddy” drama. no support checks, no visits from daddy, if they are around they aint worth shit. i really have to say that i’m happy the “men” i got pregnant by were not and are not in [...]
i’ll be dat…
i dont think of myself as holding even a quarter of the hatred, angst, bitterness and just general fuck offed-ness attitudes and ways that i held a year or so ago so maybe im just biased towards certain people and places and things about life still. with that being said i absolutely abhor the term [...]
it’s the first of the month
i can hardly believe that a year of my life has already passed. it’s been the longest seeming year ever and the shortest seeming year at the same time. i dont know if that quite makes sense. i think im going to resolve that my new year starts every year on june 1st. i can [...]
hoes and housewives
before i made the transition from a pale blonde flat chested, gapped toothed cute little girl into a young woman my sexuality was already compromised in a way that shaped it and still shapes it today. i hadn’t ever really thought about it. it’s one of those things that you dont know is wrong at [...]
one year later
i probably wont remember march 12th for the rest of my life…but i might. i’d just gotten back in sac from being at my grandma’s with my mom helping my grandma deal with my grandpa’s passing. my mom had actually said something about me going back to sac and her staying with my grandma for [...]
there is light
last week my bestfriend, Tofu De La Moore, http://www.tofu916.com and I were chatting over instant messages about the state of our lives and our minds. I will go into my mindstates and how i feel but i wont divulge his side of shit because it aint my business to put out. And for once I [...]
why i fucking hate you 3/19/07
i hate you because i only let you see a piece of me at a time. and if youve seen many pieces and try to play me because you see a weakness i really fucking hate you. you are so busy trying to decode the inner workings of me, you miss the bigger picture and [...]
i hate walmart
I do, I really hate walmart. I know they have great prices on everything and all but they suck. I worked there for three days and I hated it. I wanted to kill every customer that came through my line who commented on how slow i was. BITCH DOES IT LOOK LIKE I BELONG WORKING [...]
oh, you a lil insecure, eh?
there’s this part of me that wants to communicate with him and there’s this other part of me that wants to shove a sock in his mouth and duct tape it in when he starts talking. the homie said it best with something like you two are both just crazy and two crazy people like [...]
